Thursday, January 5, 2017
Yesterday was a little more of a challenge. I was hungry all day and was really craving sweets.
I actually broke down and baked a cake mix and whipped up a little frosting. I was feeling really guilty about it but continued to tell myself what I recently learned in my Beat Binge Eating program.
There is nothing wrong with a small sweet treat.
I ate one piece and felt satisfied, yet there was something about that feeling of "cheating" that started to get to me. I wanted to go back into the kitchen and have more.
I stood at the stove and looked at the cake. I had a silent conversation with myself and asked, "If this cake were unlimited and I could eat it whenever I wanted to without any guilt, would I still want another piece?" The answer was no.
And so that was it! I only ate one piece and I felt very satisfied! The sweets craving went away and I continued on with my evening.
That's a HUGE triumph for me!
I admit, I am still battling those thoughts of the "all or nothing" mentality. I keep telling myself that it takes little steps and consistency.
Someone commented the other day about my eating habits and deeper issues. You mentioned that maybe I needed to let go of the shakes.
Deep down, I know you are right. I keep fighting it, hoping for different results. I have friendships intertwined with this program and that makes it a little tougher to try to let go of. Although, I don't want to let go of it 100% because I do believe it makes me feel better. I just have to make it my own, and that's what I'm trying to do!
So like you said, I shouldn't feel guilty for eating a salad with a shake. If that's what helps keep me on track to healthier living-- that's perfectly ok!
Wednesday, January 4, 2017
It's time to check in on last year's goals to see what I actually accomplished!
Here are the goals that I set for myself last year followed by how it actually went.
Reach my Goal Weight:
Ummmm yeh. That didn't even come close to happening. I actually reached the highest weight of my entire life. Huge fail!
This went really well for me! I feel like I made some really great friends this year and that makes me happy. :)
Earn My Previous Yearly Income:
I definitely did amazing in this category! I earned over $10,000 by myself and at home. Yay!
Venture Outside of my Comfort Zone:
I did this quite a bit during 2016. I took a cupcake decorating class and met new people. I went to some Direct Sales events. I put myself out there and made friends.
I continue to listen to podcasts and read books. I'd like to read more books though!
Take Regular Me Time:
I have done this pretty regularly, thanks to my in-law's for watching Little Miss Sunshine for me. It kind of goes in waves though-- I'll have plenty of time to myself for a while and then have a stretch of time with no me-time and I really see the effects of it. I definitely need that time alone and I've learned when it's time to take that time!
So basically I accomplished every goal except the weight loss one. No big surprise there, unfortunately! It's a battle I can never seem to win!
But guess what? Accomplishing all of that other stuff shows that I'm pretty awesome anyways, right?! That's what I'll keep telling myself until I believe it!
Next up, setting my goals for 2017!