Today I had my yearly doctor’s appointment.I was INCREDIBLY nervous about it. I had a headache, I even had stomach issues due to nerves. I was anticipating the worst.
Let me tell you why.
If you’ve been following my journey for some time, you know that the primary reason that I started this journey was because I was told that it wasn’t recommended that I have a baby at my weight. Now, I wasn’t WANTING a baby quite yet at that point in my life, but the doctor forewarned me. It was devastating because I knew it was something hubby and I wanted in our future.
This happened every year, even as recently as last year. Last year, I left the appointment in tears because the doctor recommended, once again, that I not get pregnant. (I wasn’t ready yet anyways…) While my weight was finally getting under control, my blood pressure was too high and she told me I must do something about it.
Over this past year, I found a new primary doctor. She is WONDERFUL. She got me on a regimen to control my blood pressure and I am SO happy to say that every time I take my blood pressure it is NORMAL! Today it was 116/69. ME…the girl with WHITE COAT SYNDROME. So that was under control.
Well, hubby and I have some plans. We’re ready to START THINKING about having a baby. *squeal* I know, right?!
Now don’t get too excited yet. We aren’t ready to start until next year. And God willing, we will be able to have a child.
My doctor told me that the birth control I am currently on is for people with high blood pressure, so it’s not going to make a difference with my blood pressure. While my blood pressure is now under control, I am also taking meds that cannot be taken while pregnant.
I asked her straight forwardly, is there any reason that I am not healthy enough or that you don’t recommend I have a baby? And she said, “Absolutely not. You will be just fine!”
Now that was good news. I don’t know if she changed her mind because she finally saw good blood pressure numbers and knew that I cared? Or what?
She asked me if I still exercise. I said, yes I do, and you probably have noticed that I have gained weight, but I have not given up. She said, “Oh, some…but not that much! No biggie! You are at a transition point in your life. Graduating college, a new job. You’re under stress. Totally normal!”
Now I have had two doctors tell me that. The first one, after I broke down and cried about it in her office. lol. That was really a relief to know that MAYBE, this is a response that NORMAL people have to stressful transitional points I life. I haven’t given up.
So you can imagine how I left that doctor’s appointment. I am flying high. I am so happy. And hubby is happy too. He told me he did not want me to get pregnant until the doctor said it was ok. And I understand that, he cares about me and MY health too.
So now I have to see my primary doctor to get the BP meds figured out that will be ok for me to take in the event that I am pregnant. She explained to me that I may have to take a pill 3 times a day versus once a day, but I can handle that.
WE CAN START A FAMILY!!!!!
Ok, Ok, Ok. Calm down. We’re not starting one yet. I will continue my birth control until AT LEAST the blood pressure is figured out. We all know what a process that can be with finding the right doses, etc.
What I’m trying to say in this post is…while we’re not ready QUITE YET, it’s a POSSIBLITY! There’s HOPE!
So for now, I am going to continue with this healthy lifestyle and weight loss. I want to lose as much weight as I can and be as healthy as I can until the day I find out I’m pregnant. We’re not even TRYING yet, but it’s in the future. And I’m so excited.
Today is the day that my hard work has paid off. I started this journey so that I would be healthy enough to have a baby someday. I’m not at my goal yet, but I sure am getting there. The healthy habits have been made. I am a different person. A totally different person. Thank goodness for that.
If you’re wondering if this weight loss thing is worth it. It’s TOTALLY worth it.