Today was weigh in day and it wasn’t good. I basically gained a couple of pounds the day after weigh in and maintained that all week, only to have another jump in my weight this morning. Total gain of 3 lbs.
As terrible as that sounds, I don’t think it will stick around. Here’s why:
Over the course of last week, I have progressively gotten better. At first, I still didn’t track. I had every intention to but never got it done.
On Monday night I had a bit of a break down and a talk with hubby. I realized that I am absolutely miserable. I hate myself and that pours over into other areas of my life. So that means I am certainly not comfortable where I’m at.
That brings a new motivation to this. Something that I seemed to have lost along the way. I DO THIS FOR ME. I do it to feel good about myself. Because I am happier when I’m on track.
Tuesday and Wednesday were good days. The days are progressively getting better. I started tracking. And today I plan to continue that.
As I’ve mentioned before, I have been a bit MIA because I have been overwhelmingly busy. But, I’ve been struggling with that and having to go into the office every day for work. I’m finally settling into a routine and setting healthy habits in my new schedule.
I am packing my lunch bag FULL of healthy foods. Fruits, veggies, and even a 2 point granola bar if I start to feel a sweets craving—better that than a 6 point cookie, right?! I also bought Starbucks instant coffee to keep in my desk to drink. This often keeps me from snacking. As always, I have continued to drink lots and lots of water. The past few days my goal has been to eat the RIGHT foods, even if I went over my points a bit.
Now it’s time to move to the next level with it being the beginning of my WW week again. I will eat the right foods and stay within my points.
I worked out before work on Tuesday and Thursday (this morning). I biked both days, which I know doesn’t compare to running, but it’s better than nothing at all.
I questioned if I should even come on here to tell you all that I gained…YET again. This is supposed to be the journey to THIN, not the journey to FAT! Good grief!
It’s hard for me to admit that I’m not doing so well. I keep falling down and I keep getting up. You’ve seen this pattern again and again. But I figure as long as I keep getting up, that’s really all that matters.
I will get this. I’m hoping in the next few days to be able to report those 3 lbs. are back off again! Right now, with all that’s going on, I’d seriously be happy to maintain. A loss would make me ecstatic!!
Thanks for reading. Sorry it’s not anything inspirational…it is what it is! This is where I’m at right now.
Where are YOU at right now?