Thursday, May 23, 2013

The big decision I made

Since it is now official, I’ll share what my big decision a couple of weeks ago was.

I quit my job as a reporter.

No biggie, right?

Well, this is the first time I have ever quit a job for a reason other than moving away. And two weeks later, it is final!

This took a lot of courage and strength for me to do. I had to make a decision. A couple of weeks ago, I wrote about how I often sit in indecision until something happens that shoves me into a decision. And this time, I didn’t want that to happen; I had to take control.

This choice was about being true to myself. It was about pursuing happiness. It was a choice that made it clear that I believe I am worth it.

As you may remember, I was very excited when I got this job. I enjoyed some parts about it, like an awesome boss and having a lot of freedom, but there were more aspects about it that I didn’t like. I met some wonderful people in this job and I am very thankful for that. But without going into very much detail, as you know, there are two sides to that coin—and I am worth more than that. I deserve more than that.

This was a part time job where I worked up to 20 hours per week. Take that in addition to my full time job of 40 hours per week and other duties as a wife, friend, etc., and it just became too me overwhelming for me. After working, I was too mentally exhausted to do much of anything else. And if you truly have a passion for something, you don’t feel that way about doing it.

Working out has become a chore, emotions and stress made me want to eat (and I did), and I have gained weight. My health, physically and emotionally, has suffered. Two weeks ago, I felt physically ill and mentally drained. I spent the majority of the day in bed resting and trying to heal my mind. I realized that what I was doing just wasn’t working. My body was very clearly telling me that enough was enough. And before a certain someone tells me about how they work a gazillion hours, take care of children, and save the world while doing it—I am very proud of you for your efforts, but I hope you know when to say enough is enough, if that moment ever comes to you. Because I did.

Enough is enough. It is time for change. And I don’t know if freeing up my time and ridding myself of the added stress is going to have a drastic affect on my life, I like to hope that it will. I know I will be happier because of it, and for that- I am grateful.

I am excited to find out what the next chapter in my writing and publishing career is. I have certainly found that writing is my passion. I currently have a full time job as a technical writer and editor and that has been a blessing. But I want to pursue more in addition to that. I want to start to delve into writing for writing’s sake. Maybe try my hand at fiction or personal essay. I want to try to express the deepest feelings in human nature so that others can read about them and feel them too. I want to share what’s going on in this head of mine and exercise my creativity.

I hope to share some of this on my blog with you—my loyal readers!

At the end of this LONG post (thanks for reading!), I want to leave you with this message: listen to your heart; be true to yourself. If you have given something your best shot and know that it’s just not for you, or not meant to be, just let it go. It’s not quitting—it’s declaring that you have fought, you have conquered, and you are ready for your next victory.

And as always, YOU ARE WORTH IT and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.


  1. Decisions like this are very hard. It's most definitely not worth working so much that you can't enjoy your life and are too tired to do anything.

    You are worth it.

  2. Wow! Big decision bot obviously what was right for you. Enjoy the freedom you must feel now. :)

  3. What a nice way to end your post!
    It's nice to be reminded that we are all worth it!!

  4. I think this is a wonderful decision. I know it probably wasn't an easy one to make, but I was always stunned at how you could keep up with all the jobs that you juggle. I'm glad you've weeded out the less needful things in life. I know I have had to cut some things out of my life more and more as I had more kids and then began homeschooling, etc. You learn to make good use of your time, and if the extra job was eating it up and adding stress, good for you for ditching it! I'm excited for you about this decision. Thanks for sharing! :)

  5. Glad you made this choice that will make you happier,even if it was hard to do! Looking forward to hear how it helps in your every day life.:)

  6. Good on ya! Sometimes, we have to put ourselves first and it's not always easy but I love it that you are doing it for you and trying to follow a dream. Very well done to you and I wish you well with the next stage of your writing career.

  7. GOOD FOR YOU! It takes a strong person to realize when they have had enough and spread themselves too thin. I am sure you will feel much better when you get back into an exercise routine and a normal routine. I am sure you will be happier and this decision will be well worth it!

  8. You made the right decision! Your health, well being, and happiness comes before anything else. I can't wait to see what the next chapter holds for you. I wish you all the best in your writing career. Whatever you choose to do will be amazing!

  9. Good For You!!! I read it to the very end, and love the advice...

  10. Awesome, I know the feeling. Good luck Alissa!



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