I have talked about my struggles with social situations before. I’m an introvert and I am perfectly happy just spending time with hubby and Little Miss Sunshine.
I do like to be around other people, but it just drains my energy and I have to take time to recover afterwards (not to mention to psych myself up before hand)—I believe this is attributed to being an introvert!
But guess what?
Since last Thursday, I have ventured outside of my comfort zone three times. I went shopping with my aunt and cousin—including enjoying coffee and chatting with my aunt. It was fun! I even brought along Little Miss Sunshine, which of course always causes me anxiety. My aunt helped out a lot and made me feel very comfortable—so that makes a big difference!
On Friday, hubby and I went to a friend’s retirement party. We even sat by a couple of people I didn’t know—made a couple of new friends! We both had fun.
By Saturday, I was completely worn out and feeling horrible. I had a migraine headache that lasted over 24 hours. I took a 3 hour nap and that helped a little. I was starting to feel like I used to when my anxiety got really bad—I had that “buzzing” feeling in my arms, etc. Is it really possible that activities like this cause me THAT much anxiety? Even when I seem to handle them just fine? It’s crazy. It’s either that or a physical response to eating foods that I’m not used to eating, or a chemical change.
I felt better Sunday morning, we went to our church meeting and then had some friends over for lunch. This is huge for me because I seriously never have people over unless they’re family. It was even my idea. Imagine that! It went just fine, despite my feelings of awkwardness.
I had a nice long nap in the afternoon and woke up feeling energized again. In each of these situations, I had to change my thoughts from worrying I did something wrong or worrying about what others were thinking of me to just being proud of myself for surviving. Focus on the positive, right?
So anyways, slowly but surely I am conquering my social situation fears. Progress! I heard somewhere that once we conquer our fears, they won’t seem as scary anymore. With practice, I will learn to come out of my shell a little more.
I am even planning a surprise party for a friend. It will be fun. Even if I will be exhausted and need a nap afterwards. I think I can accept that
it’s just the way I am and realize that’s ok!
These things might seem silly to most people, but they’re big changes for me!
Are you an introvert? How do social situations affect you?